those whose name are written shall die

Thursday, January 31, 2008

In less than 12 hours, local university application will start! Application will opened from 1 feb till 21 feb! Please apply to each university individually! Interested applicants do not forget about this!

What about me? I am thinking of applying after I finished my 2nd FYP presentation. Now got so much things to do for FYP lol. Currently (or even in the past) I have only two choices in my mind. They are NUS pharmacy program and NTU Chemistry and Biological Chemistry progrram. I think I need to see what other options that I can have besides these two. I am just worried that I can't even make it into either of these two programs lol.

Anyway, all the best who are applying either this feb or march! Hope you guys will enter into the program of your choice!

Can someone advices me about other choices?

I will be heading to Suntec this saturaday to hear more about the chemistry program at NTU. Anyone else going as well? Haha...

wrote in the notebook @ 1/31/2008 07:15:00 PM

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

I have an hour long chat with Kim Hwee last night. Little did I imagine that we will chat so long. We started off by telling our checkup experience. After I told him that I will be going back to SOC for temporaily, he suggested to me not to go back and I should probably something that I like to do. And this started our conversion of the night.

He talked about how one person should and go try out something for a change. Whereas for me, I keep thinking that one should just do and wait for something to happen. That's the different between the 2 of us. Of course, we didn't turn the conversion into a quarrel or something like that. We were just merely expressing our own views and giving suggestions in what we should do for the future.

The reason he told me that I should not work in SOC was that I should find something that I like to do. No point working in a place where you just pack non-stop. Even if I work for the sake of money, I should work for something that I like. But I don't wanna change. I don't like changes and prefer a familar environment. And he keep suggesting to me that I should really go for a change.

I somehow did thought of a change. But I wonder, how am I going to do it? Where should I start from? How should progress from the first move? I have no idea at all. I thought, what will happen to me in the future? I have already wasted 10+ years slacking and doing nothing. I hardly go out. Even if I go out, I don't know what I should do. I am already not living a normal teenage life. I have no idea at all. Absolutely no idea. I don't even know what I want to do in the future.

I don't even know what I am talking now.

In any case, I have to admire Kim Hwee's way of thinking and looking at things. He always looks at the positive side of things as opposite to me. I would always look thing negatively.

Oh well, maybe it is really time for a change. I wonder will there be anyone there who will give any good suggestions on what I should do? Maybe the answer lies within me.

I think nobody will know what I am talking or bullshiting about.

wrote in the notebook @ 1/29/2008 01:16:00 PM

Sunday, January 27, 2008

One week in SP48 has passed. Another 3 weeks to endure.

I was so lucky on friday. The lift in my block has been installed. Seeing that it was working, I decided to 'play' with it. I pressed and the button and the lift arrived. When I entered the lift, before I could press anything, suddenly the alarm rang and the whole power within the lift break down. I couldn't press anything and I left the lift. The door closed and it couldn't opened. I can't imagine if I didn't leave the lift. I would probably be stuck there.

Anyway, I been so worried about few things this few days.

1. NS Medical Checkup. I don't know how is my checkup. I feel that somehow I didn't tell the MO certain stuff regarding about my skin condition. He just merely asked me what condition I have and that was all. I feel he should maybe ask me more things. I may not be able tell him the information he wants.

2. FYP. I am really worried if I cannot get an A. If I fail to get an A, my GPA would DROP. I don't think I did well for the first presentation. I need to put in more effort in my second presentation, AES and report writing lol. I am damn worried if I cannot get an A. I don't want to see my GPA dropped... I can feel the pressure on me now...

3. University Admission. I don't harbour much thoughts of entering pharmacy in NUS. With my results, I doubt I can do so. But the worst though hasn' even come yet. I wonder what if I CAN'T EVEN get into NTU Chemistry? I am really worried as well. This also got to do with my FYP since FYP is worth 12 credits and has a GREAT impact on my final GPA.

So many things to worry, what should I do...

wrote in the notebook @ 1/27/2008 06:12:00 PM

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

I have just got a good website from Tee Khan about watching drama and anime.

http://www.xiaoli.cc/

Yeh! Now I can watch Heroes online le... Haha

Anyway, good luck to those taking their O levels results tomorrow!

wrote in the notebook @ 1/23/2008 01:53:00 PM

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

Monday
First day of work at SP48. The place is not really that big and the workload is heavy in the morning. I have to pack discharge patient's prescription and inpatient medication orders. Then I also have to do topping up of ward supply. I don't quite the environment. Maybe it is because I am still used to SOC layout. I wasn't really that happy or sad.

Afternoon was not too bad. Not much things to pack and I spent about 2 hours just to do returning. Sianz, I need to work on saturday again. I missed the few saturdays off. Haiz.

I just simply missed SOC.

Tuesday
I met up with Tee Khan in the morning and we went to CMPB together for our medical checkup. I was surprised to see Ambrose there as well. I thought he had gone into NS long time ago but well you know things do happen when you are in polytechnic.

Anyway, the first station was photo taking, followed by medical checkup.

The first station for checkup is blood drawing to see whether you got any other internal diseases. They took 2 tubes of blood from me. The person asked me what I had for breakfast and I say I ate Char Siew Bun. After that came a shocking thing, the person asked me to come back at 1 pm or after I finished everything for my blood test again. He say Char Siew Bun contains too high cholesterol and he needed to take my blood again! What the hell..

Then I went to check my ears. They placed me in a room and ask me whether I hear something. The sound was so soft lol. After that it was the eye checkup. I knew I was going to fail this stage. My eyesight has probably worsen. Follow that, I proceed to take an X-ray and have my teeth checked. I was quite surprised the dentist actually knew I wore braces before.

The last medical station consists of the ECG checkup, height & weight measurement, blood pressure measurement and body checkup by the doctor. The moment I enter the room, the MO asked me to pull my p*** and he asked whether I got any lumps in there. I told him I also have skin condition and he was like don't what, keep asking me where else do I have rashes other thatn my arms and legs, which I have already told him.

The last station for the day was the pc test. Quite stupid la. They asked all sorts of funny questions and I didn't even have time to finish it. I wonder why there are people who came later than me left earlier than me.

Then I went back to have my blood test. He told me it was still early (it was 11 am at that time) and he told me he can only take the blood at 1 pm for more accurate results. What the... So I got to wait for another 2 hours even I have finished everything... Lucky I went CMPB early as there are not many people, so you don't have to wait so long. I only need to wait for the doctor's checkup. Other than that, I didn't really wait. If I have came later, probably I need to wait like don't know how long for the pc test.

Enough saying. I cannot believe I actually got to wait for another 2 hours just because I ate Char Siew Bun in the morning and it contains high cholesterol. I told Soon to eat something simple and he order porridge. He wanted to order nasi lemak. Luckily I told him early, if not he would have ended up waiting for another don't know how many hours to have his blood taken again.

Since I have finished my test, so what about my PES status? My current PES status is D, temporaily unsuitable for grading and require further review. I hope I can get B and below.

Last words. advice to those who are going to CMPB for checkup: Go there early. And if you are going after breakfast, eat bread or biscuit. If you are going after lunch, take something like porridge. If not you probably end up waiting extra hours just to have your blood taken again...

wrote in the notebook @ 1/22/2008 03:16:00 PM

Saturday, January 19, 2008

This was my last week at SOC pharmacy. It has been quite a fun and interesting experience at SOC pharmacy.

Learning wise, I have to say I got to learnt more things and see more things. For example, I was at the Anticoagulation Clinic (ACC) on tuesday to observe what the pharmacist does. Bascially the pharmacist acts like a doctor, whereby they see a patient, check whether their condition is ok and decide on whether they should increase, decrease or unchanged for their dose of warfarin, after which they will prescribe them with warfarin. Of course, they can only get their warfarin medication in SGH in this case since the prescription given by the pharmacist can only be used within SGH. But then, it was quite an eye opener for me. It gave me a chance to see what a pharmacist can do other then dispensing. It was really a good experience. Don't think I will have such an experience if I were to attach to other place. Not to forget, next week I will be going to the asthma clinic.

Another thing, I actually got to dispense on wednesday. It was my first time dispensing medication as if they placed me on the duty roster to do it. Instead of just observing and 'trying' it, I was practically dispensing medications and medications without stopping. Not to mention that the counter was extremely cramped, with 3 other pre-regs next to me dispensing with me as well. A really good dispensing experience that I have at SOC. Another plus point to be at SOC pharmacy.

Not just a good learning place, I got to make more friends. Here at SOC, I wasn't like a robot packer, just doing packing. I was always like talking and doing other things. Friends here that I made will around my age, making it more easier to commuicate. But of course, this doesn't means I cannot get along well with older colleagues (except Madam Tan). I really goona missed this place and the friends. Anyway, some of them have already left, but we can still meet up for outings in the future. And that's not the end, I will be coming back to SOC to work temporaily! Miss Tan has already say OK and we just have to work out the details.

Oh well, on monday I will be rotated to SP48 and I heard it is a busy pharmacy. Arh, I need to adapt to another environment and I hate to do it. Even I will be at SP48, I will still head back to SOC after work to go back with the colleagues there. I just simply missed that place.

Another 3 weeks will be chinese new year and the week after that will be my 2nd FYP presentation. I guess I need to start on it soon. One more thing, only now that I realized that supervisor's FYP grading consitiute 35% of the entire FYP! What the heck... I guess I need leave a good impression for my supervisior at SP48 to get a good grading...

wrote in the notebook @ 1/19/2008 10:00:00 PM

Sunday, January 13, 2008

I have now receivedtwo more letters from NTU regarding some events that they have planneed for polytechnic students.

One is about program talks in Suntec city on 2nd Feb and the other one is about the open house of the school of physcical and Mathematical sciences. I guess I should be heading to the open house of the school of physical and mathematical sciences to enquire more about their chemistry program.

I appreciate alot of what NTU has done to attact polytechnic students to go into NTU. I wonder why doesn't NUS do the same thing as well to attact polytechnic students...

wrote in the notebook @ 1/13/2008 07:01:00 PM

Saturday, January 12, 2008

I have a saturday off today. Went back to NYP for the open house. I find that this year open house is not as exciting as last year and there is a low turnout. I guess since there are 3 polytechnic open house, most people would be heading to SP's open house. The setting is quite boring and it looks too spacious to me.

Oh, by the way, Block N Level 6 has already been converted to food science lab. The lab looks new and cool. I wonder when is the pharmaceutical lab going to be set up.

I just find that I should not even have gone to the open house in the first place. I just don't fit into that environment. I don't seem to know most people there and I seems to be an extra guy.

wrote in the notebook @ 1/12/2008 10:15:00 PM

Friday, January 11, 2008

The FYP assessment form incident is almost solved. I have gotten the form and have ask Mr Tan to help me do it. I have also apologise to Miss Too for the trouble and the confusion that have taken place. Anyway, I shan't not discuss any more further about this matter.

Nothing much happened today. I got to dispense quite alot of time in A&E pharmacy. A good experience for dispensing.

There is NYP's open house and I may be going back to school tomorrow to take a look at it.

wrote in the notebook @ 1/11/2008 07:13:00 PM

Thursday, January 10, 2008

Basically 2 things spoilt my day today.

1. I missed 2 trains on my way to work. Luckily, I wasn't late for work. Apparently, there was a service disrupt somewhere along the mrt line. As a result, there was a crowd at Bishan and Raffles placee station. So I got to missed one train and wait for another train at the respective station. But I wasn't feeling really bad about this incident.

2. This 2nd incident practically really spolit my day. I checked my mail in the afternoon and Miss Chia send me an email, asking me to tell my supervisor to send back the FYP assessment form back to her. I sms her to ask her to do so.

However, she sms me back, saying I should find the PT that is directly in charge of me, because she is monitoring my progress during my stint at SGH. But you see, the PT in charge of me doesn't even know that she got a student under her! So I am stuck in a situation.

I asked my supervisor again what form is that. She told me that she got a FYP assessment form from Mr Tan, which doesn't apply to me. To cut the story short, I called Miss Chia told me it is an FYP assessment form, which of course, contributes marks to my final FYP grading. Of course, I am worried about it. Now you see who's fault is this. The form was along with my supervisor, it's just that she thought that I have no project and only presenting my attachment experience for my FYP, that's why she thought that the form doesn't apply to me.

I don't blame her for that. I can understand as she is already confused with our project-attachment system.

I hope that she will realize that the from is intended for me and she will send in asap, and of course, she will give me good marks in spite of all this unpleasant situation.

But why was I angry over this incident. It was not just because of my FYP marks (mind you, 20% of the grading and there are 2 such thing, making this form 10%), but over the communication process. If you read carefully earlier, you will realize that the PT in charge of me doesn't know she got a student under her. She only realized that until I show her a piece of paper. You see, she wasn't inform by my supervisor.

Furthermore, if the form is with my supervisor and is the PT who needs to assessme, wouldn't she need that form as well? So my supervisor would have to send that form to the PT, but she didn't. You see if the supervisor doesn't inform the PT that they have students under them, how would they know? You can't expect the student to go and approach them. Even if the students really do so, how would the PTs know what to do? I bet Mr Tan (Imean the Mr Tan in SGH) doesn't even know Yuan Lin is under him!

Luckily, other PTs are willing to guide us along in SGH, if not I would not know what I will be doing and learning.

Lastly, I wonder why am I the only one among those doing FYP, whose assessment form has not been send back to school. Even Siew Horng, who is in SGH as well, has her form send back.

wrote in the notebook @ 1/10/2008 07:03:00 PM

Wednesday, January 09, 2008

Tuesday
I attended the fire safety talk in the morning. The speaker was quite funny. We were sad because he finished his talk so early. We were hoping he will talk more longer.

After that I went to A&E Pharmacy. Quite a small place. It was quite slacking in the morning, so I could practically surf the net using the com there. This is probably why Kim Hwee wants to come here. The PT there was quite fast, practically doing everything herself. I did dispensing a few times, either I asked for it or she cannot dispensed it (She can't speak mandarin). The drugs there quite limited. Mostly injection and acute medications. The drug inventory there is almost like a polyclinic pharmacy, except that polyclinic pharmacy has more variety. The medications I dispensed are mostly for pain (Diclofenac, paracetamol, famotidine and some other cough or minor problems).

Afternoon in SOC was mad. I work extra 20 minutes. Of course, I cannot claim money for extra work.

Wednesday
Attended TP students' FYP presentation in the morning. After that I went to A&E Pharmacy. I encounter one patient was very rude. He complained to the pharmacist he waited too long and worst still, he accused of the pharmacist for doing nothing and say the camera has recored everything. He even wanted to lodge a complaint. What a rude and unreasonable patient. I serioulsly don't know what to say about him. On the bright side, I did dispensing today. Hehe. Probably only at here, I can do more dispensing.

I hope SOC will not be that busy in the afternoon like yesterday.

wrote in the notebook @ 1/09/2008 12:27:00 PM

Monday, January 07, 2008

Phew~. Finally the first round of FYP presentation is over. My asessor was supposed to be Mr Kelvin Tan, but then last minute it was changed to Miss Evvone Ong. This is the first time I am seeing her (since she joined NYP when I was in attachment). Her looks are not bad. I have heard about how was she, so I was kinda scared of her. Oh well, things seem be the other way round. It was not bad, I was just speaking a little bit too fast. Guess I am nervous.

I thought after the presentation there was supposed to be a Q&A session, but there was no Q&A session. She have already ask all her questions during the presentation. So kinda another surprised.

Although it was not bad, somehow I have a feeling that I did not do well in certain areas. For example, I talk alot about the working environment (when the guidlines state BRIEF summary of working environment) and didn't talk much about the daily routine (this section is really self-understandable) and only a little bit less for techniques learnt section. I scared some of my marks will be penalized lol.

So ya, I am feeling abit scared. I want to get my A for FYP. Now with another 6 weeks to go, I will need to prepare for my next presentation and I also need to set up a website. Guess this is going to spend even much more time.

For the rest of this week, I will be spending half of my day at the A&E pharmacy. Hope I get to tried out more things.

wrote in the notebook @ 1/07/2008 05:48:00 PM

Sunday, January 06, 2008

6 of us went to NTU yesterday for their "Experience NTU 2008". It is a bit far from boon lay mrt station. The first thing we have was hearing the Dean of admission and some other people speaking. It was so easily tell the difference between a business and an engineering student.

I was joking with Yu Sheng that other people take bus to reach the school they were visitng and we were going to walk. True enough, we ended walking to the school of biological sciences because it is just a few minutes walk from the auditorium.

We first listened to one of the staff talking about their program, why should ntu and all such things. Then we went to tour around the school, looking at the facilites. I was a bit impressed by their facilites. The place is so new and I cannot forget the $2 million room. Inside the room, there is 5 mass spec machines (each cost about $400k, equivalent to the price HDB 5 room flat)! We also went to see the mock TCM clinic.

After the tour, we went for the lunch reception at the auditorium. There seems to be so much food, but then I realized all are the same one...

In the afternoo, we went to orchard hotel for the IDP thing. It is so easy to guess which australia university is popular. Just look at the queue. Those queues that are long are those popular universities. We only enquire about the pharmacy course from curtin university. Didn't realize that it is also hard to get into their pharmacy course. The intake is only about 50 a year and for A level students, they need to have extremely good grades. Now that I think of my lecturers who used to be in curtin. Anyway, I won't be studying in australia, gonna stay in singapore for university studies.

Tomorrow I going to have FYP presentation. Very worried that I can't perform well. It is graded and FYP is 12 credits! I need to do well tomorrow and I must get an A for FYP. Hope all the best for me and the rest who are also presenting tomorrow.

wrote in the notebook @ 1/06/2008 07:15:00 PM

Thursday, January 03, 2008

New Year Eve
LAst day of work for Gleen and Soffian. I wish them all their best for their future.

I met up with Gerald at City Hall. He brought along one of his BMT mate with him. We then went to walk around marina square and then to coffee bean where we sit down and chat. Aftet that we went to secret recipe for our dinner. The watermelon juice was definitely "cheap'...

We then aheaded to the marina bay there to watch the fireworks. The place was just full of people. Truely a "People's Park", a park of people. ANother friend of Gerald joinued us as well.

The fireworks was damn nice lol. Maybe next time I should consider watching it whenever there is a chance. We then headed to clark quay after that. The pub wasn't just suitable for me. I left with Arthur, Gerald's BMT mate.

I did really enjoy this outing. It has been sometime since I last went out people. Missed this outing. Hope to have more of such outings in future. I don't wanna always stay at home and rot. WIll post pics if I have any.

Anyway, what I hope for 2008:

1. Family peace. Seriously, I really want this. I can't stand in a home where the climate is always changing.

2. University course. I just hope that I can get into the course I want to. Guess you already what course I want to choose.

3. Outings. I just wanna go out more often with people and not staying at home.

4. World peace. haha

Although it is late, wish you guys a happy new year and all the best ahead for this year.

wrote in the notebook @ 1/03/2008 01:53:00 PM